I feel like as of recently i've been making promises that I intend to keep but things just change. Life happens. I promised this girl i've never hurt her, but that changed. I promised this other girl that I wasn't like other people, that I was a great friend, and I wasn't going to stop being her friend no matter what because I understood that there's nothing worth losing a friendship over. But things changed there as well. I'm sorry that neither of you will ever read this. And i'm sorry that neither of you will truly understand how sorry I am. But mostly i'm sorry that I couldn't hold to my word. So, i'm sorry.
I don't want to talk about apologizes anymore but I refuse to change the title. Instead I would like to speak about life.
Things to change. From day to day my ideas alter and change and I don't understand why things like relationships and marriage are even able to take place most of the time. I mean who is to say that when I wake up tomorrow and everyday for the rest of my life i'm going to love you? That's just a stupid promise to make. It really is, and I don't know what makes it so special. Because you both have your name on a piece of paper means you're bonded together forever? What a dumb idea. I mean, I know i'm going to get married and i'm going to hope to not have to get divorced but if it does happen i'm going to get upset, and i'm not going to understand but i'm wrong. People change we do.
It does. I hate it.
ReplyDeletemarriage is so special cuz its like promising someone that u will try everyday to love them and make them happy. its essentially telling the other person you'll do ur best. sometimes crap happens, but marriage is wen u promise to look pass the crap to see the person that u married. yea it doesnt always work, but for a while its always special.
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